Finally seeking help for my mental illnesses. It’s really fucking scary, already talked with some kind of therapist for over an hour, we have new appointment at thursday, and now i’m waiting to see a doctor, not gonna be able to go to work for a while. Idk. They say i’m brave because after a decade i decided that this is enough, i need help, but i mostly feel empty and tired. It was horrifying to come here.
Today’s shenigans: I made my gf think with my confusing text msg that I wanted to break up with her!!! Eeps. Had to instantly call her, after she started to bomb me with replies, and whine “noooo that’s not what i meant!!!!”
I’m working hard and we only see each other at the early mornings and late evenings, and we are both stressed and tired hollaaa but free weekend approaching, finally, just few more daays and we can relax together, cook delicious food, go to the town for a breakfast aaand do some naughty things ye a.